JOURNAL HAS ENDED.

Today is the day an official break up is published. 17th march was the first day i hugged a girl and closed my eyes and saw a picture of us together. She isn't beautiful on the outside but very on the inside. I got attracted to her the moment i saw her. She gave me a chance and it went on really well untill now. She has only one flaw which is her ego. She can be so stubborn to the extent you wanna pull out your hair.

MEMORIES:
We met through an event in december.
Got close after i got my exam results.
Happiest day of my life - 17th March 2009 [ Hugged Her ]
Met her parents in March
Dint know I was attached till the second time i met her parents at her grandma's birthday.
Went for movies that was so boring yet i was happy because i sat beside the one i love.
Sat at the park to talk and appreciate the dark sky.
Went to her house and watch a movie together but wasn't a good experience that day.
Went prawning with her and she did better than me.
Went to play pool at amk central with her and let her win.
Went to window shop with her with our hands connected.
Went to her house to give her something to eat when she was hungry.
Search for her when she walked off but couldn't find her.
Went to Marina Barage and intended to see the stars that night. Never got to.
Ordered a stuff toy from the shop but dint got a reply.
Went skating with her cousins, sister and her.
Cried on her shoulders before.
Slept together at the chalet for a while.
Took walks with her in pasir ris park.
She bought milk tea for me when i wasted my own.
She came for me when i needed her most.
On the phone for 2 hours and dont mind wasting time.
Got to know some of her friends. Dint get to know those she talks to alone.
Tickled each other on the bed.
Kissed for a long tym in the park
Threw tantrums together
Lay on her shoulder in the bus.
Tickles me when im angry
So many memories but i don't wanna type them all out.

Problem with us:
I'm too sensitive.
I get jealous easily cuz i don't know her friends.
I am afraid of losing her cuz i got no confidence.
She refuse to let me tag along with her sometimes which makes me doubt her.
She has a barrier going on in her.
She dosen't like to say I love you to let me feel she does.
I wonder if she lets anyone hug her when she talks with her guy friend in the night.
I care too much.
Put too much hope in US.




Readers, this post is here because i never wanna forget this wonderful girl that has given me all i ever wanted. If theres a girl like her in my next life, i would gladly try to do the same from the start. Honestly amongst the 4 ex girlfriends, she is the one i only wants and couldn't live without and ever since 7/11/09, my heart is never alive again and its because she is not willing to change for my sake. She is going to continue to be stubborn and make a fool out of me. People can say im an idiot.
Friend: "John, u let ur girl go out with a group of guys and your not there?"
Myself: Trust her. [Speechless]
Friend: Dude, thats not the way man.. You don't even have control over your own girl.
CONVERSATION ENDED CUZ I GOT ANGRY WITH MY FRIEND!

I don't know what to say now. Im just seeing the blue sky turn grey. My heart is in pieces but that dosen't metter. The day she finds her true happiness is the day im willing to tell myself let go of her, shes got wad she needs. Lasst but not least. I LOVE YOU but im sorry, u've left the scar there and theres no way we could be like before unless u change.

Objective: Are you mean and sarcastic? Have you ever answered people ‘meanly’ and sarcastically? If yes, show us how mean and sarcastic you are! If no, then you should try at least once in your life with this note.

Rule: Respond to these as sarcastic/mean as you can.
(YR stands for Your Response.)

IF AN ANNOYING PERSON SAYS :

1) I am cute..
YR: Ugly, yes... Adorable? Not at all.

2) I am the most beautiful/handsome..
YR: In your dreams sucker...

3) See, everyone likes me because I am rich and famous!
YR: I like you too, Can i have $1000 please? [ In my mind ' Look at this REATARD ' ]

4) Unlike you, I am perfectly multi-skilled. I do everything very well from sports to academic thingy.
YR: Big fuck? Die early only...

5) You don’t know me? I am Bruneian artist; I have albums.
YR: Sorry, i don't know imfamous people. No offense, i have every album but yours.

IF AN ANNOYING PRETTY WOMAN/HANDSOME GUY SAYS :

1) I know you like me.
YR: I'd rather like a dog than to like you.

2) What are you looking at? I am not interested in you!
YR: Oh sorry, was looking at the tree behind you. Din't notice your standing here. When did you come?

3) Sorry, you are nice but seriously not my type!
YR: Bitch, If your the last woman on Earth, I'd rather not reproduce.

4) UNLESS you are rich, then don’t dream that I will get a ride with you!
YR: I'm rich but I'm not riding with you.

5) Look, I am pretty/handsome; I can make people hate you!
YR: Go ahead and try. Handsome but cocky, nobody will give a damn about you.

IF AN ANNOYING EXTREMELY UGLY WOMAN/MAN SAYS :

1) I think you and I can make a good couple.
I can't, sorry.

2) May I have your cell phone number, please please please pleaseeeee?
YR: Gao(9) Lak(6) kongkong(00), Lam Pa PONG PONG.

3) Hi, wanna hang out? I want you to be with me the whole night..
YR: I want you to go and look in the mirror first before you talk to me.

4) What do you like about me?
YR: Your ugly face, disgusting smiles and embarrasing bitchy character and you know when you try to flirt, no one bothers? Thats the best part.

5) I want you to say that I am pretty/handsome and you like me sooooo much!
YR: You are so chio and i like you to the extent i want to poke you 9999 times with a knife.

IF YOUR ENEMY SAYS :

1) Hi bitch!
YR: Hello my pet.

2) You smell like shit!
YR: You don't exist...

3) I know you hate me because I am much better than you!
YR: I hate you because you like to act as if you think you are better than me.

4) What an ugly creature you are!
YR: What a handsome mutant you are.

5) I am going to kick your ass in this race for sure!
YR: I walk also faster than you...

IF YOUR ANNOYING EX SAYS :

1) I still love you...
YR: I love you too.

2) I know you still love me!
YR: Talk to my hand.

3) Please, go back with me honey/hubby..
YR: See that wall there. Stay there don't move.

4) Please call me...
YR: Okay, sure! [ Never did ]

5) The break up hurts me so much..
YR: Good. I wish i can break up with you twice or trice.

IF AN ANNOYING SALESPERSON SAYS :

1) Wow! You are so pretty/handsome!
YR: Thank you, So i am.

2) Seriously, I used this product and look at me, I am changed!
YR: Yea, From bad to worse.

3) We are giving a discount up to 50%!
YR: Orh, byebye..

4) This one is good sir/madam. Buy sir/madam, buy..
YR: You can buy it for yourself since its so good.

5) That product is not good; it causes pimples all over your face.
YR: Yah, i believe you used the product for years to make your face in this condition.

...

Wake up... Or you get fired!! haha.. Hmmmmm.. I'm tired too... Hungry!!! Gotta go for training! Sianzz

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Depressed...

Sigh, things couldn't get worser than this. First is my cca. Trainings have to be cancelled for this month due to H1N1 virus and everyone has to leave campus straight after class which does not allow me to complete my RJ early always. That means i gotta rush home straight after sending hunny home if i go to TP. The second thing is hunny's attitude towards me.. I want you to know that you make me very angry at times because of ur attitude. I don't understand even when we are together, you still want to push me away. Its like i'm waiting at the door and you open the door but when i am about to walk in, you slammed it straight in my face. How am i suppose to react my dear? Please open up to me.. I wanna be here for you like you are there for me when i need you.. You do make me smile and happy but you just don't know. €verytym i receive a message for you or when we are talking, my mood is lighten and i laugh alot. You can make my day but why choose to spoil it? Can't you be less stubbon and listen to me sometimes?

I really miss you badly now.. We quarrel now and then but this is no way we should end our relationship like that. I told you before i want this relationship to last and i'll make it last but hunny! IT TAKES 2 HANDS TO CLAP! If i walk to you and you walk away, I won't get to come close to you. There are so many things that i find so unfair. I don't see you keeping my pictures or taking pictures with me like you take with others. Why is it you treat others so good while i get nothing. I feel so jealous! Everytime you treat your friends so nice, i feel very useless and i would turn to keeping queit cuz i don't wanna let you know i'm sad sometimes. Sweetie its been a tough time for you and me but i'm holding on so much and so long cuz you mean too much to me and i cannot afford to lose you. Please think about it and your words are very strong to me. If you just say things without thinking, you hurt me alot.. Just to let you know, i'm very emotional and i treasure relationship alot.

Australia!

This happened in Australia.. 2nd june to 10th june.

Hunny Sent me to the airport at night and went home real late.

Melbourne City! COOL !!

A church in Melbourne.

Inside the church.

Was treadted like australian prisoners. Damn cool.. This is the exercise yard

The bunks. Such a small area for 10 person. Gosh!

Another bunk. There are 3 types of bunks.

The outside look of the bunks

Prisoner John Chew Tze Leong. Arrested for falling in love with Tina Liu Pei Shan!

Outside the jail !! These aint prisoners btw. LOL

The place they used to hang people. Thats a dummy.


Just cannot believe this. This is their walls over there. Its legal to do this !!

As we continued our journey in Melbourne city, We visited a crypt.

Im inside there and i decided to zi lian abit.. LAWLS

Then i saw thousands of badges that were displayed. Really thousands and thousands of them

And an upclose shot... Haha like i'm looking at some girls.. Thats what my cousin said.

Outside the crypt from the back door.

Went up a mountain near by. Place called Dandenong..

Went to an apple farm next and i saw a horse that was attracted to my elder brother because he was holding an apple. Retarded alphonse use a camera to flash it and it ran off.. I got a big shock for heaven sake.. What is his problem man..

Then we went to a cave about 40 to 50 km after we came down the mountain.

The cave is beautiful...

I have never never never seen something like this before.. Only thing is..

We can see these calcium like stuffs that shines but we cant touch it cuz its nature..

Tempted to pluck bits and pieces to bring back to show hunny..

But i have to respect the cave... Guess wad..

Retarded alphonse had to touch it.. JOKER + IRRITATING TO THE MAX!

This is proof to show im inside.. A very warm cave huh? My face kinda stunned.. No idea y !

Look at this diamond like stone!

Proceed to sydney from dandenong.. Not really far.. ALmost 10 hours of pure travelling... We did eat alot of fish and chips, burgers and chinese reataurant by then..

Reached sydney... Wonderful place relle ! Miss Australia but you know what ? I miss hunny even more.. Nothing can take her place. NOTHING !

OPeRa H0uSe ! Nicest Scenery !

This is just the nicest picture especially when i'm not in it.. AGREE ?? haha!

Damien And Me.. He is quite a fun person to be with though.. NICKNAME : VENOMANCER..

This is the top magazine picture yo !! really i cant believe i get such a nice picture... OMG!

Check this out, damn cool ! I got a new trade mark smile... I'll use this really often yeahs!

Russell kor trying to avoid my pictures !! I won't let you go Australia study without remembering you de.. I'm so nice i know..

He decided to take a picture with me already but too bad i look like shit... What am i doing seriously..
OCEAN SKY CHINESE RESTAURANT GAVE ME A FORTUNE COOKIE SAYING : "Time is precious but the truth is more important than time."


A pelican. It looks so annoying i feel like going in to kick them SERIOUSLY ! They eat fish like drinking water also.. MY GOSH !

Laughs they cannot fly cuz they are injured so i dint kick them. Poor thing rite but still dont let me see u birds flying or you can say bye bye !! to ur wings..

Look at them... Can't stand them liao.. Eating and Eating non stop..

This is much more adorable.. Its a dolphine.. Damn bloody cute!

Look !! I wanna touch it pls!!

I cant tough.. It did some stuns for me to see.. Love it.. Shall name you Miss lovely!

Eww.. U look damn scary.. Do you know how many rays are in the small pond? I dare not say... Abit too scary.. 3 digits..

Big !! Super Super Super scary..

Polar bear.. Haha very cute..

Its going away..

He ate many many many fishes too..

STar FiSheS..

Went to the underwater world. Saw Manata rays.

Then Weird fishes..

And A shark

The large one came behind me...

Came out to check out A baby penguin!

Went to the beach and scream and took a picture.. Realise its my trademark.

Russell kor blinking his eyes to try and distort the picture..

Tried too many times till he got pissed..

When the night i almost got drunk and knock everyone out first before i sleep.

Look at damien... He peed in the bathtub and came out to take a picture too. He dint know he was taking pictures.A clearer picture..

Saw tiger doing stuns!! so cool.. They relle powerful jumpers too.. Dont play play..

Eating some meat..

Hmm wheres is the other one?

Here it is.. Its a white tiger..

Baby animal.. Forget what name it is.. This is not a kangaroo..

These are kangaroos.. Considered small ones already. Scary man..

The baby is already quite big size.. Always wanna take picture with it but before i go closer he stare at me !

Finally he allows me to do so.. And allowed me to touch it. Wanted to hug it but i heard kangaroos will tear your stomach apart and pull out your intestine when they are threatened. So no way ! xD

A tasmanian DEVIL !

Singaporeans here!! dont knw thm but yeah !! Gave them some food to feed..

And wow!! look at these crocs.. omg damn big.. Its like 5 times of me u know..

And went to see some sheeps.. How we get wool.. Cool experience..

An eagle.. Its wing is injured and is unable to fly. You should see it.. Its beautiful but poor thing. It keeps looking at the sky.. You can tell it misses flying alot..

Made a tattoo and wanted to show hunny when i get back. Sad to say i got bad news... Aww.. She went malaysia.. By then the tattoo fades off.

Sat the jet boat for the first tym.. It was the last day though.. HAHA DAMN FUN !! ENCORE !!


Went to movie world for more roller coasters.. Super super scary..

I've sat every ride at goldcoast so theres nothing i don't dare sit anymore.. BRING IT ON!! Escape theme park? No kick!

Try goldcoast !! Must go place if u ever patronise Australia

Send russell kor to the girlfriend's hotel then we head to airport and fly back to Singapore.